Current mood:

guilty

Eek.
It's hit me that the next exams I take will be the most important I have ever taken, as they will go towards determining my final grade when it comes to graduation.  My GCSES, A-Levels...all of these have been simply steps towards these exams.

And yet, I feel like I am doing far less work for these exams than any others I have ever taken, including the first year exams.

This is a little worrying.

OK, so it's easily explained that as you get older, and more independant, you invariably get more commitments and far less time to do exactly what you want whenever you want.  But still, I really, really feel I ought to be working more.  I just never find the time, especially with the huge amount of time AJS work takes up.  For example, I've been working on this poster to advertise our big boat party event yesterday and today, and it took a total of around five hours to complete:

So, coupled with other stuff like daily living and ever-present distractions, I feel like I've got hardly any revision in at all!

If this was me about two years ago, I would be panicking and freaking out about how much little work I've done.  Yet, despite the importance of these exams, and despite the amount of revision I really need to to on account of how badly my grades have slipped between first year and this year, I feel strangely unmotivated and reluctant to work.  This really is a problem.  I need to work, goddamit!

But first, sleep is necessary.  Yes.